<- kinda old art hi everyone thank you all for 2.4k :D btw this is gonna be a bit of a recap of recent months, including some details about my personal life that touches on my mental health as well, just a warning i just reached 2.2k about a week ago and my animation meme blowing up was a surprise… thank you for supporting me, even through all the “how is this not banned?” comments because they actually made me feel really upset. tysm especially to the people who made me feel better anywho i’m glad you guys like my art and it’s cool to see how much i’ve grown since i created this account. whether you’ve been with me since the start or just found me, i still owe a lot to you for my success here. i wasn’t expecting this account to really get to this point and it’s surreal i never thought i’d grow so much, in just like 16 months at that. beyond the screen throughout those months, i’ve struggled and prospered—i’ve been at my highest, and hit my lowest, within a year, and 2023 was really a whole rollercoaster for me. that was when i stopped using scratch for a while, though. this was around mid-june to late september, and it was during this time period where i’d no interest in making art in early october, i picked up my stylus again and opened procreate for the first time in a while. i needed distractions from what was going on at that point in time (DESPERATELY), so i decided to go back to creating art as an escape this school year has been the most hectic for me. i was put into an entirely new school for high school since i received a scholarship. i was terrified by everything—losing nearly all my friends, being unsure if i could handle the rigor of this school, the pressure of having to think about my future 24/7… just about a month prior to school starting, i had gone through a break-up that absolutely shattered me and the events that followed weren’t pretty at all even now i still think about the break-up, i’m still healing from it, but i am glad that it happened [i started tearing up a bit typing out this bit because i still remember how difficult this all was for me] when i started posting again, i wasn’t really expecting too much. after being inactive for some time, i didn’t think people would really pay much attention—damn i was wrong in early october, i hit 1k, and towards the end of the month, i reached 1.2k… i didn’t think my art would get as much attention after my period of inactivity, but my account kind of just skyrocketed, subverting my expectations and then in december, i’m pretty sure you guys already know… i got to 1.5k :D my dmc kinda blew up and landed on top remixed, and now i’ve got 100+ entries to judge oh lord (btw there’s a month left) fast forward to like late february and i’d already gotten to 2k, which is absolutely insane considering how just 5 months prior, i’d only just gotten to 1k. and now, a month later… 400+ increase. that much in just 4 weeks is crazy i have to thank each and every one of you for this; i’m still climbing out of the hole i was in, but being able to share my art here helped me. art has always been my creative outlet and i’ve always liked showing people what i’m capable of, and it makes me feel appreciated as for things beyond my art, smaller things like simply just having conversations with friends and those who support me actually means a lot. i’m happy that i’m not just appreciated for my work but also myself as a person thank you for listening to all my yapping <3
