i don't even know why i like you! you'd never like me back. don't even know why i wait here. but i'd do anything for you. i'd help you get with the boy you like-- yay! you got together. four months of pain, watching you with someone else. when you were heartbroken, i gave you my shoulder to cry. i texted you every night, called you, hung out with you. i'm your best friend. when you found a new crush-- i helped you get with him. seven months of pain. watching you with someone else. heartbreak? i'm here. it's okay. cry on me. sit with me. talk to me. befriend me. but you will never love me. never. and i can't bear it anymore. i can't even do it-- i can't think about the fact that you're with someone else. i can't even think about our conversation tonight. and the person i like? yeah, it's you. you're going through a tough time. between two boys. don't know which one to choose. they're both nice. handsome. kind. and what am i to you? a friend. simple. easy. a friend. so you asked for advice. i would do anything for you. i would watch you a thousand times, in a thousand worlds, watching you laugh and date someone that is not me. will never be me. I DON'T KNOW WHY I LIKE YOU!!! i don't know why i hurt myself like this! i can't even control it. i hate myself for doing this to me. i seriously do. and i can't handle it to watch you another several painful months with someone else. i can't. but i will. because you're my everything. you are everything to me. my heart. and if you leave? my heart will leave too. i don't think i'll find someone else like you. i don't think i can be happy right now. for once, i think i'm going to school with a frown tomorrow. not a smile, not a real one, not even a fake one. the one you're used to. because i love you. but you never will.
