(i thought it might be nice to share this old rant again ^^) @lem0n-taffy was right smh i'm so stupid bye she literally told me to respect people's feelings i should've listened and now i've lost them what have i done? i wish i wasn't like this if only i could respect their boundaries, everything would be okay i've ruined everything it's all my fault and to think i tried to blame them for my stupidity i was angry i'm sorry. one of the others said that she wouldn't talk to me unless i knew how to make a proper apology so i'm truly sorry for what i did i'll never do it again on purpose i won't blame it on others or be defensive or anything else like that. one of them said that they were afraid of what i would do if we stayed friends to them: i would never do anything like that to you especially you because i looked up to you for so long and i still do please don't be afraid of me and there was one who i'm not sure about does he hate me? i tried to be nice to him as an apology but he didn't accept that so i hope that these mentioned above will not hate me when i grow up when i'm older and mature and have some common sense. i don't know what's going on anymore. is my life better without them? maybe... but i feel empty a n d a little w o r t h l e s s but that's okay because you're happy. oh, and i ask one more thing of you just o n e please stop stalking me i know i did it to you but you don't have to be afraid anymore i'm not a bad person i p r o m i s e .
