I am so done rn. I hate it on this dumb planet. It's so bad here. I just want this all to end at this point. I want all things I hate to be ridden of. I just want to be with my friends. I hate it here, I hate myself, I hate everything. I feel like everything is a lie. It probably is just a dream I'm going to wake up from. I know it's not actually a dream but still. I wonder death and the afterlife, I want to know what it is like. I WANT TO DIE. I am losing my academic interest which isn't good. I told when my grades are in B's and C's and it makes me feel awful about myself because I HAVE TO BE A PERFECT STUDENT AND CHILD. It's so hard. It makes me hate life even more than I already do. I am forced to go to things I don't want to go to and end up having panic attacks and mental breakdowns. Some leading me to hurt myself. It's tiring. I just want it to stop. I don't feel comforted by close ones anymore. I don't even feel loved. I feel neglected almost. I want it to end. My mental health isn't getting any better if anything it's getting worse. I can't even bring myself to talk to anyone about it too. I have no clue why but it sucks. When I talk to others about it they play it off as a joke. WHY CAN NO ONE TAKE ME SERIOUSLY? I AM DEAD SERIOUS ON THIS TOPIC. Just shut up. SHUT UP! Peoples voice annoy me and make my pull on my hair even making me pull some out. It's annoying. ACTUALLY, JUST SHUT UP! CAN YOU NOT ZIP YOUR MOUTH??? I have the same experience at pep rallies but it's mainly just the noise. When people even touch a hair on my body I get angry and I huddle up to stay away from them. And people still manage to touch me and it just makes it worse. Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this Please end this
Me rambling on about nonsense once again!!!! Love that... This may or may not be taken down but idk...
