hey everyone. recently, i've been really struggling with my mental health. i feel like no one likes me, or no one cares. it's not really how barely anyone views my projects (how many people will even see this?) but i struggle with interactions - i overthink things and worry i've said the wrong thing. i also have no motivation. i'll start a piece of art, or maybe a project, then delete it almost immediately because i hate everything i make or do. i'm so lazy - i don't do anything. when was the last time i even finished a piece of art? i don't deserve my friends - they're so kind, talented, supportive and everything i try, and fail, to be. do i even want to do this? is this the right thing? i question myself for everything. i'm so indecisive. too indecisive. i can't do this. i can't do anything. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - when people post vent projects like this, others just comment 'aw, im sorry' or stuff like that. but do they mean it? i don't want this to be meaningless. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - so yeah, i'm taking a break. i have no idea how long it will be for, maybe a week, maybe months. if it's a while, i might check in once in a while, but it won't be frequent. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - i hope you all understand. - star <3
