I feel so alone. Every night I just lay down in my bed listening to music to comfort me. It never works, Makes me feel worse. I don't understand how I feel so active and drained at the same time. I have so many things I wanna do, but I'm too tired all the time to do them. Am I lazy? probably. Same with school. My whole personality at school is to be the "funny guy". And I feel like I can't even do that. I spend so much time trying to be funny it's consumed me. And if I'm not even funny anyway...What am I? Am I just trying to achieve something so impossibly far away that I'll never make it to the achievement? I feel like nothing goes right in my life and I think it's just my fault in the end. Everyone in my life either thinks I'm annoying, or just leaves me. I think the reason why I like making people laugh so much is because I can never be happy myself. And seeing someone else happy is the closest thing to me being happy. I need sleep...Probably gonna delete this eventually, anyway. Cya, guys.
