[ [ TW :: health issues, venting / ranting ] ] to make a very long story short, i'm leaving sweet retreat. and it's not because of anyone or anything, really. it's me. i'm not keeping up with the rest of . . . everything. i'm failing classes. losing friends. and i'm scared i might miss out too much. my health has declined since i've gotten covid for the second time in my life ( i think i've gotten sick like 14 times in the past four months ??? /srs ) and i believe i'm going through some sort of teenage depression my anxiety is worse. i feel left out and unwanted sometimes. like no one cares, though i know some one does. and i want to be a better person. i think it'll be nicer away from the burden of having to respond to every comment, to stay positive in every situation. because i can't. that's not me. i'm a normal person, so why can't i act like one ? i'll find out why eventually [ summary :: i'm not going to join anymore chats, private or otherwise. i also probably will stop going to people's profiles to speak unless i'm super motivated, so i'm not ghosting yall !! :'o i'm gonna start being more active as an artist and role-player, although i doubt my skills will improve. you can still come to my profile and stuff too. ]
please please / please / don't ask questions like ' ' oh, do you wanna talk about it ' ' or ' ' i'm here for you ! <33 ' ' although these are very kind, it makes me feel / extremely / guilty and horrible, like i've done something wrong /lh /srs
