"Are you tired?" a lot of things carry in that sentence. i feel so overworked. ive barely slept or ate this month. i have 4 tests within today and tomorrow. i have 5 assignments due tmrw, and being me, of course I procrastinated all of them. ive been climbing 6/7 days a week, two hours at a time- (im a competitive climber and on a team) and my hands are wrecked. ski racing season just started (im also on a ski team) and i train on saturday and sunday. farewell, sleeping in! on weekends now i get up at 5:00 for skiing. i have a two and half hour algebra class outside of school, chinese class, and piano class. i dont have any free days during winter break (nor do i have an any free days during my week tbh). im doing a holiday ski racing camp. volleyball season just ended, and THANK GOD for that. not that i dislike volleyball- i love it, but i just had too many things to do. mountainbiking takes up summer and fall weekends before ski racing season starts. and then there's drama. i have a person in my frnd group who is always SO rude to my close friend- saying extremely insulting things to her and always trying to exclude her. this person is literally insufferable. she's always melodramatic and exaggerates everything. such a fking pick me istg. she can be nice... sometimes. every other time, she's annoying and i cant stand her. my other friends all agree, but we dont know what to do. my school is doing secret santa, and OF COURSE i got the worst boy in the grade. and idk what to give him and its TMRW. im stressing so much. have been sick the past week, my throat hurst like hell, i cant stop coughing, and i have a super stuffy nose, but i still went to all my (outside of school) classes and extracurricular activities. no time for breaks. no time to rest. just go. go. go. ive been lashing out at friends at school. everyone tells me im cranky all the time. i apologize afterwards, but i cant help it. sorry. i have no motivation to do anything. no motivation to post. no motivation to go skiing even. no motivation to hang out and talk to my friends. i think so lowly of myself. i feel like im plateauing in climbing (which is my main sport). ive been to nationals, but im scared i'll never get to go back. the climbing gym is my only safe space to forget everything else. the climbing team is like my family and i love them so much. but its hard. i may be having a writers block on my LA essay about the meaning of humanity rn- but lets be fr, im having a life block. sorry for venting to you guys. tempted to leave but i wont cuz i need my friends here
so, "yes. I am tired." - lyla why are people so annoying. bro I am actually so done. @astro-tears left today. i love you so much, astro. thank you for always being one of my closest friends. i'll never forget you.
