![i ruin everything... [vent]](https://cdn2.scratch.mit.edu/get_image/project/938056349_480x360.png)
I know. I shouldn't vent. No one's going to listen anyway. Or care. But I can't hide it. It's difficult to find a place to let everything out. My family? They don't listen, or they try to brush it off their shoulder. My friends? ... I don't want to stress them. I don't want to vent on here too. But it's getting to the point to when I want to commit.. the s thing. I'm scared of losing all my friends. Or seem uncool. Or mean. Or rude. I'm constantly getting nightmares, which make me scared of things I shouldn't be scared of, like a close one of mine getting seriously hurt. And even on a kids' website like this, I'm scared of taking something too far, or hurting someone's feelings. Online it's ten times worse. You don't know anyone you see, and I don't want to get reported. Anything I touch comes to ruin or destruction. Is it really worth being myself? Is it worth living up to my username? Which brings me up to my next topic to vent about. I go along with the joke, but I don't like it when I express my negativity somewhere (if I have a bad day) and someone says "wHeRe'S tHe PoSiTiViTy?" My username's my username. It's just there. I have feelings too. Not every day is a good day to me (usually it's the opposite). I understand the joke's a joke, but it kind of hurts. I know, what I'm saying is unreasonable. Who's going to care? But I have no other option. Well, I do, but I'm so.. uh.. in the void of sadness now that there's not much I can do.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I made some art of sad Liva. Music - Heart over Mind - Alan Walker & Daya
