screaming about my problem because i struggle to talk and i really just cant do this anymore )) I've been homeschool for this first semester of 8th grade; but my mom want me & my brother to go back to public. I'm okay with that, homeschool is genuinely really hard, and has brought me a lot of stress; but it also has stopped me from knowing what happens at school. i feel so left out. so. so. left out. and no one at my school c a r e s . example; they were doing this cool play thing (i don't know) and NOBODY told me, but that wasn't the biggest problem, it was the fact that WHENEVER I ASKED ANYONE, EVEN MY CLOSEST FRIENDS, NO BODY, NOT A SOUL, WOULD EXPLAIN IT. they really don't care . i have diagnosed adhd. its not fun, tbh. from that adhd, it makes me get anxiety. i don't stop moving. ever. i cant focus. at. all. nonetheless, i feel like i really don't understand other people with adhd. i probably am a n@rs@s1st; because WHY does it feel like NOTHING is REAL, and everyone i interact with are FREAKING NPC's ??? like, i realize everyone has emotions, and i can h/////rt them, but nothing feels real. i am broken, aren't i? [ sorry about this, i just really, really needed to say this. I'm so tired of everything. if i act negative (which i probably wont, masking is way to easy to be good) this is why. ]
