im so stupid. selective is coming up, and every week im getting dumber. i used to be so confident about my selective scores, but at this point i should just give up. except im not allowed to. my parents have to get in the way of everything. and I dont blame them. i would be worried too if my ten year old cried herself to bed every night. why am I so sad? theres virtually nothing to actually be sad about. my friends support me, so does my mum, and most other people in my life. ive started developing dehydration problems because i cry so much, so often. my parents are telling me that it's unnatural. something's wrong with me. for the past four years, scratch has been a safe haven for me, full of supportive and friendly people. but even the one place where i could pretend to be happy and actually believe it.... had to get just as corrupted with bullies, protesters, and people who think that "its just a phase" "suck it up" "theyre just jealous" i just want you all to know that youre not helping.
song - crybaby - melanie martinez - sped up
