Man, my life is just… I thought me and him were friends.. I did everything to keep our friendship going… I listened, I was there… But nope, I never got any of that.. I apologized. I want to fix my wrongs if I did anything. Why won’t he understand? But I always felt like I couldn’t be myself. I know not everyone will like the same things.. But it was just- How much of what happened in the last 2-3 years was really my own choices? How many fandoms I’ve been were what /I/ was interested in? How many times was my innocence just almost shattered by the friend group I was in? How many times did I force myself to like different things just to make him happy? Many. I know he goes through alot. I just want him to be happy. But my mental health will just keep hurting if I let myself hang around him. I only have 6 months. It just going to get worse if everything stays the same. I have fear. Everytime he messages me. This /never/ happened before. It’s always the same thing. Going to school hopeful, drawing for comfort, feeling alone at lunch, constant fear in gym, anxiety checking messages, and sadness lying in bed. I’m really hoping high school will be better. It has to be. Because now I’m partially alone. But I’m glad that the people here let me be myself, and do goofy things, because it feels like my own friends don’t do that.
Don’t know who made the audio :[
