So Time to share my plan. If I don't win Honeybee of Legends litter I'm leaving. If I win I stay Or if I find another kit I wanna commit to. You may ask "why?" I answer that I've lost motivation for this place. I'm not even too old. It's just... This place, it holds memories. Memories I don't have anymore. Friends that... Well, aren't friends anymore. I miss the old days here. Coming here makes me sad. Don't get me wrong, I love everyone here. You all are amazing and unique and different. But I've noticed change. When I'm not here all the time I'm happy, unless I have something I'm commiting to here. Then I'm happy when I'm here, too. But I also have a life, yk? And I'm just getting busy and stuff. And don't get me wrong I love this place. You all built me into who I am, what I want to do. You all helped me realize who I am. I remember when I was unhealthy attached to this place, constantly checking my messages, clawing for attention. But now? I have enough to do. I'm good enough that I can write books. I wanna be a lawyer. I wanna go to Harvard. I don't want to be known as the kid at school who talks to people online because their lonely. And I'm not anymore. So, if I don't win Honeybee (yes, I'm that committed to her) Then I leave. And moe, do NOT. take this as pressure to make me win or a guilttrip. It's neither. It's just facts. She's the only thing keeping me attached and, truly? If I didn't have her or Seaty I'd be long gone. So Seaty and honbee Let's see what happens.
To moe : Please don't take this is a guilt trip or pressure to make me win, it's neither. Pretend like honeybee isn't your decision and if you do read this, pretend that you don't even know what kit I'm applying for please. I don't want this to change a thing.
