wow it's... been quite some time, hasn't it? i doubt most of the people- you- seeing this, even remember who I am at this point. But that's okay. I'm different now, and I've grown. Coming back to this site has been strange. I logged on today to find strangers on my projects, old things i scrapped gaining traction, people responding to things i've said a whole year ago, back when I was still active. How they found me will forever be a mystery, but something about it is sort of endearing to me (regarding the fact they;re most likely children who don't check dates lmao). Whatever drama went on is over now, and yet some part of me feels like i've been torn back into my younger body, a younger self at a different time, just by having this tab open and writing here. I forgive whoever and whatever happened, and I hope they have as well or have forgotten entirely. Regardless, i hope they are doing better and whatever be the cause for it in their lives to be or have been solved. I don't want to hold this grudge anymore, and I want it to be known. Anyways, I know it's strange to not see me for like,,, half a year since I left? and to now just see me back here as if nothing's changed much. but, to be honest, in my personal life, things have changed horrendously- some for the better, some for the worst. For example, me. I'm different than whoever I once was when I started this account. that me and this me are different people, and I hope that's not a problem and that you can get used to who I am now. What I mean by this is that I've changed over this time. I've went through a lot of personal events that've changed me- I found the most wonderful person ever what I would literally d13 for (@mercuryzwisps ily and yes we are dating CRY ABOUT IT HOMOPHOBES!!!). I am now in half custody of my dad (i hate him, he was and still his a horrible human being) and my mom (luckily she gets me more often due to the distance of where they live and where I go to school). I've discovered that I may be bipolar or maybe have bpd?.. some sort of personality disorder, 100%. I've changed and adapted my writing, drawing, and typing style. I've found new interests and dumped old ones. Just,,, all in all, I'm a new person. Life hasn't been the kindest to me, so I've grown around that. And because of that, I think I could, maybe, occasionally appear online again?... What I mean by this isn't full-time on scratch like the old times, but maybe an occasional once every week or two to say hi, maybe post something, and then continue living. It is true that life without scratch has been better, less stressful, not having to maintain as many relationships or followers or whatever. But,, I also kind of miss it. The stupid chats. The dumb roleplays. The (SHORT-LIVED) drama. The animatics... So, does this mean I'm returning? Technically yes. I'm going to adjust my account to fit who I am now, so this may look like a different place within a few days. Plus, i'm currently typing this at 1:33am on a schoolnight after getting no sleep all day. woohoo, tomorrow is gonna be FUN. /sarc I don't want fame here, I don't want attention. I just want some friends and a place to post my things (since flipaclip is broken for me, I can't animate anywhere else now. :'] ) So, I guess this means I'm back. I would write more, but for the sake of the unknown and unkept promises, I'm going to cut it short here. I hope you welcome my return back with open arms. Thanks.
