Hello! So just a w@rning, this poem discusses things related to d3pr3ssion. Please do not report it and read at your own risk. This is something that weighs heavily on my shoulders, and its something that some people dont know about. I have always hated winter, but 2 years ago something bad started happening during winter. Last year, it was utterly terrible and such a horrible time in my life. I have SAD, seasonal affective disorder, or seasonal d3pr3ssion. And where I live, its overcast every single day. So here, maybe this help some of you understand why i hate winter so much, enjoy <3 --------------------------------- "Winter is here." ---------------------------------- “Winter is here” A phrase that makes me shed many tears Staying inside with little to no sun Is really really not so fun Yes there are fun festivities Yes there are many fun activities But those can only quench the boredom for a day What happens when all the friends and family go away? The place where I live, often has no sun And when I mean often, I mean no, nada, none Its always grey skies and a very dull light The clouds never go away, even during the night I have always hated the lack of sunlight I hate where I live with such spite It has something to do with chemicals in my brain But I honestly just feel insane I enjoy the peaceful break that comes when Christmas rolls around But during the school days, my happiness is nowhere to be found The days become long and dark So dark there really isnt even a spark I hate the clouds, the gray and black beings that hang in the sky I often ask myself, why why why? Why do I hate the winter so much? Why do I often feel the need to throw a punch? Well, imagine having a diagnosis so bad That the legitimate acronym is literally SAD “Seasonal affective disorder” It is something that makes me think many horrors Often it is called, ‘seasonal depression’ So now you know that, let me ask you a question Have you ever felt that one feeling in your gut The urge, the need, the ich to c#t? Have you ever felt so trapped in your head? That it becomes an overwhelming feeling of dread Have you ever felt the urge to lie? The urge to say, “Im okay, I dont wanna’ d!e.” Its a feeling of hopelessness, dread, stress, annoyance, loneliness, sadness, and frustration all mashed into one Often times, I wish I could be done Im tired too often I feel their gazes soften I do not want your pity I do not want the help of a city I want your understanding, is that too much to ask? Because to me, it dosent seem like a monumental task I deal with the feelings all throughout the year But during winter, they always get more severe I dread this season, I really am scared Ill try my best but I will never be prepared I can already feel it Even though I do not want to admit But whenever someone says the phrase that makes me feel fear I will always end up in tears So I ask this, have you ever felt that feeling of fear Whenever someone says, “Winter is here.”
