Sooo as you stars know, I currently deal with a lot of things in my current life- and as it might not be much to you, it's much to me that I must say I'm depressed- I have anxiety, and I'm currently feeling like I'm mentally burning on the inside-. I'm 99.9999% sure no one else feels the way I do or thinks the way I think. I feel hurt most sometimes, and I feel criticized- many people say "thinking positively and everything will make you happy" and "it's prolly just an act, you'll be fine-!" but really- the way I may speak to you will most likely not be the way I speak to myself ("Energetic, Nice, Kind, Positive") giving the illusion that I'm probably perfectly fine- I hate my looks, voice, "Attitude" and there is honestly nothing good about me! If you get to know me, I'm more "energetic" than I give off already...in a bad way- I guess I'm good at hiding how I really feel when I type towards other people-! I guess I'm glad no one noticed so far as well! I'm quite dumb....I don't know the things I'm supposed to, and I may be good at drawing but I cramp my hand, take millions of breaks, mess up, and stuff....I'm not so good with "Habits" when I draw....I don't make a good friend....I don't know a single friend I haven't lost.....In general-.....But the only positive thing about myself I can say is thaaaat....I don't really know- I honestly dont >< I just don't talk about these things because It makes me feel like no one else is like me...in a bad way- all I know is that If I keep living like this I might not even wanna live anymore. If you truly think that I'm a good person, I wouldn't recommend myself.- But I guess I'll be fine- I can't deny It at all- :( サポートありがとうございます...I've tried....
Thanks for atleast supporting in some way... ;') Why did I post this at all? :'0 Help- I have a "All caps" problem If this isnt depression then I dunno what to call it. Remember, my stars only make me happier, you aren't the cause of this :') you dont have to do anything big to help me at all, I just dont feel okay right now.
