REASON: Overthinking - I feel forgotten, hated and not existed to anyone... like... HOW LONG I NEED TO SUFFER FROM THE IGNORANCE?!?!? I feel that I am NOT EXISTED AT ALL!!! I don't feel like anyone understands me or even likes me... so much people just ignore me all the time and forget me easily like they never met me before... also most of the people who are popular just ignore me and I see they feel that my existance is not there... I feel I am useless and almost everyone making me to be "friends" with them just to use me and I discover the truth at the end... I feel like stalking to everyone is the best solve in order to be more noticed, but I DON'T WANT to be a stalker, I never want just to stalk to get noticed... I'm tired to be like a dog all the time (This is what I mean by saying this: There's a dog and there's a human. The dog wants to play with the human but the human ignores him, then the dog do puppy eyes then it makes the human play with him. Same thing about me, I try to get noticed but the high amount of the people just ignore me, I start to feel bad and left out and when I say something like that, THEN I get noticed.) Like there's non-stop of it... if you really hate me... so hate me I don't care anymore, I'm tired from trying to act like a stalker and I'm sorry if I stalked to anyone before and I'm sorry if I hurt anyone... I just want to feel a part but I don't think it will happen and the purpose was NOT to hurt anyone... the purpose was to let all what is in my overthinking go out... I see when most of the people just grow more and more, I'm staying in the same place... left out... suffering from my overthinking while the rest just feel good and act like my existence is not here at all. I'm almost quitting scratch just because it hurts my mental health all of these overthinking. I DON'T WANT to quit because there are people who still like me, but the high amount of people just hate me and keep ignoring me and it hurts my mental health. I'd like to thank the people who still care about that I am still existed... but sadly... the high amount don't understand it. From now on, there's one thing I promise, I promise never trying to stalk or be mad at someone just because I feel left out, if I'm left out and forgotten, I should not complain about it anymore... you can keep me forgotten and not existed if that's what you really want but don't be confused and sad if you see I will quit one day from scratch forever or if something else happened to me... Now I need comfort... if you want to comfort me I will appreciate it... if you want to ignore it that's also okay and if you want to hate me go ahead... I'm no longer trying to be noticed... I will still do some projects and make some good ones but still, I give up on trying being noticed because the chance it will happen is low...
