I’ve been trying to keep myself together and trying to show my best side, but I can’t right now. Some of my “friends” have been spreading rumors about me, and have been saying I’m a furry for adult reasons just because I find comfort in reading ToPH. As some people may know, BrownPaw is a comfort character for me, and he means a lot to me. Yes I know he “isn’t real”, but that doesn’t mean he has no true meaning to me. In Ranboo’s most recent project (soft grass), it was a lil PMV about him. ofc I cried because the first part was so meaningful, and that I want to know if he’s ok in the second part, but afterwards i was talking to a friend. I think they was just trying to make a theory, but it hurt me a lot. They said a lot of things, but the really important thing was this.: “I thing it would be more interesting if BrownPaw died, I mean he isn’t even really important. I think he’s gonna go to the dark forest because shiningstream is mad and all”. I know I’m /sooooooo/ childish for having emotions and people/characters I relate to and find comfort in. I guess me sobbing is very interesting too, isn’t it?
I haven’t told my parents about what’s going on because they actually wouldn’t understand what this is like. I’m not being Emo and saying “no one understands me whatsoever”, but they grew up in a different time period with different minds than mine. Also, thank you so much @Rizardon1000 and @RQWSFSAXC for helping me through my mental challenges, it means a lot to have friends that actually won’t betray you after you tell them something.
