Hello! Welcome to another project! (TW: venting) ------------------------------------- Haha, things have gotten better yet worse. I js wanna d-3, but I want to stay longer. the only things keeping me alive are my friends and family (Well the most that don't h8 me.) half the time I feel that I've been problematic, I couldn't disagree if someone came to me and said that. my parents js look at me as if I were the biggest gift, saying that I'll be successful. Rn I don't see that happening, 2 seconds I'm a gift, and 2 seconds later I'm the biggest mistake of their life. sometimes I wish I was free, but out of every corner I'm being watched, blamed, and hurt. the only place I don't see that happening is here. where my parents are not here and there are some of the friends I know irl It makes me feel safe to be here (sorta). even though I wasn't the social one to everyone sorry if you are one of those people. the school has gone well... well sorta, we dissected a cow eye haha... wasn't as bad as I thought but still a bit gross. I passed all my tests! well, one I had to retake. well, I'm going to 8th! ( The sad thing abt the test is that I thought I was going to fail and then out of the blue a passed the one I had a retake only thought I was going to pass but I failed the first time...). I have a field day on Monday it's the only time I get to feel like a kid again... as I never really had a childhood. due to foster and stuff. I really didn't know what was going on until I realized I was (Age) and I looked back to where I was about 3-4 years old. It was when it all started going wrong. I'm happy to see that things got better since then. All I can do is hope that things get better on this rollercoaster we call life haha, Stepdads aren't as bad as I thought. I don't trust him yet though at least he isn't like my bio dad. I started talking to my aunt as I was practicing how to type Spanish. (Yeah, I didn't have a lot of education back then ever since I moved here to learn English.) and talking to her I finally found out my sister's name (half-sis.) Yollery. (please don't make fun of her name.) I told my aunt not to tell my bio dad that I was talking to her. She automatically said she wouldn't but I have never known her that much to trust her. The more I know things the more it gets worse tbh. and my school is ending soon heading over to the next grade yay... idk if I should be happy or sad or nervous. one of the ppl that I know and I am (not comfortable saying on scratch.) is going on a cruise. I'm scared that they won't come back. ( I would literally die without them.) We tried to keep in contact but it's not working I'll make sure that I check in every day. All I can do is hope that they will be safe and in one piece. I'm honestly sorry for being alive rn. ------------------------------------------------ To the ones that are leaving or have left. Bye, guys. I wish yall luck in yall's lives. sorry for not talking that much to you or being socially awkward when we spoke. it was fun talking to yall! ( knowing you the time we had!) yall were great friends! and I wish you luck! --------------------------------------------------- To viewer/friend I'm really sorry to post this stuff again. I'm soon going back to posting real content soon. I'm just working through a rough patch of life at the moment! I honestly don't know if I'm allowed to take my computer in break. (But I'll see.) Tysm for seeing almost every project I post. (good and bad) yall have supported me along the way (On this acc and the last one!) I really don't deserve 58 followers. But thank you. ---------------------------------------------------------- Quick notes! - please don't worry! - feel free to talk in the comments! - ( please don't say that this is relatable It doesn't really help.) - this is an update and a bit of vent. - this is also goodbye to the ones that have left or are leaving. ----------------------------------------------------------- Bye-bye now! ( Please remember That this is a semi-break at the moment but I'll be back! )
