Fine. i admit it. Im sorry. Im sorry that im an immature jerk who can’t fight his problems the correct way according to society. Im sorry that my emotional tendencies dont line up with what’s okay. Im sorry if hating people for things they did to me and probably continue to do to this day is a bad thing. Im sorry if wanting to not hear about trauma is selfish. I admit to the swearing i do daily. Even if i want to improve and stop the impulse then yeah sue me. Im sorry if ive always been known as “the crying kid”, weird, emotional, etc. i dont know how to handle my problems and probably never will please anyone because inevitably i anger someone or myself. Apologies if i apparently act like a child at the age of 13. Im sorry if my friends bring out my inner jerk and this causes problems. Im sorry if 7th grade year was a unpleasant ordeal that i dont have the guts to talk about or stop letting it affect my 8th grade year. Im sorry if you hate me. Im sorry if you think im a bad friend. Im sorry if you think im the bad kind of weird. Im sorry if im an embarrassment to me, myself, the school, and you, whoever’s reading. Im sorry if im selfish and cant deal with daily problems. Hell, condolences to the fact ive been an emotionally-wreceked and immature weirdo my whole life. Im sorry if i second guess 50% of everything i say to my buddies after and hate myself to the bone when i go too far, and even when i dont. Im sorry if take things too personal from random people. Im sorry if every day im scared of everything going wrong, losing my real and internet best friends. Im sorry if everyone feels this way about me. Im sorry if i dont know how to act the right way at 13. Im sorry if this is all gonna get me destroyed come high school. Im sorry if i take jokes too far. Im sorry if i dont think of the consequences when i open my stupid mouth. Im sorry for literally every occurrence where ive made the people i care about feel negative emption because im a wound-up insecure emotionally psychotic loser. Im sorry if you guys bring out the best and worst in me because i feel comfortable with you all. Im sorry that i have bad days. Im sorry that these bad days are caused by me overthinking and overreacting over stupid things. Im sorry that how i handle my beef with others is by stopping to their level. Im sorry that i get worked up and dont know how to respond, or shut down and ignore the problem like i did with a bully at lunch today. Im sorry if not wanting to hear about others experiences because they remind me of my own or ive just already had a bad day or the bad thoughts are louder than usual is being a bad friend. Im sorry for BEING a bad friend. Im sorry if i dont respect the feeling sof other because i dont know how to react anymore. Im sorry if because of all the bad stuff you decide to stop talking to me. Im sorry if im too ignorant to notice all this or do something about it. Im sorry if i desperately need therapy. Im sorry that im too weak and immature to take constructive criticism. And im sorry for every other little annoyance, inconvenience, and problem my existence has caused on you guys.
