hehe its been awhile if you press space you can see an awful attempt of drawing with my mousepad again and if you press space again you can see another attempt at drawing on vector throwing it back for real but yeah its been a while for sure short answer is school. my health and grades are so much better after I kinda left scratch. I will admit that I was a bit addicted to this community, especially since it was my only community during covid. tbh its a little bittersweet. yes, i do miss this community and all of the friends I made here, but I'm so happy so see how I've grown, the obstacles i've overcome, and the person I am now. I still struggle with procrastinating on homework and assignments, but i'm working on it, and I have hope that I can create better habits that can positively benefit my future. I'm almost halfway through high school now. I still cringe when I look back to my 7th grade self on scratch. I did and said a lot of things I kind of regret, but I was just being a kid, so I shouldn't have to feel ashamed of that. I actually can't believe how much I've grown and changed since joining the scratch community 3 years ago. scratch was a big part of helping me become the person I am now. I am not a big fan of the community now. a lot of people left and its not the same, but that's ok. I've never really been a fan of the art community on here. it was like a hierarchy and the people at the bottom of the pyramid didn't get the respect they deserved. I also never supported how a lot of people acted. no one seemed to handle remixing or tracing well. I know its a tough subject to deal with, especially since people here would put hours into their art, but a lot of people who remixed or traced weren't approached in a nice way. a lot of times, new scratchers were tormented or scared away by large amounts of people getting angry at them for something they didn't quite understand yet. I can tell you myself that the concept of remixing was hard for me to comprehend at first and I was guilty of remixing projects without changing anything when I first started scratch. people even got mad at the scratch team, which I don't think they should have. yes, they did a few questionable things that were bound to make people mad, but they're managing a free kids coding website that is used by hundreds of thousands of people and they need to keep scratch as friendly as possible for their target audience, even if it negatively affected some of their older members, including artists who posted projects that could be interpreted as inappropriate by adults and parents of young children. I don't mean this is a mean way, but there is other media that these artists can use to share their art, but there aren't many other places for children that is as easily available and educational as scratch. I'm sorry if anyone disagrees with this, its just something i've been wanting to share. I want to take this time to also thank everyone for one thousand followers. it's been a long time, but i'm really proud of what I was able to accomplish. i appreciate every single one of my followers. younger me would be so happy to see where I am now. I know she didn't think i'd ever be able to get this far and I'm really proud of her for never giving up. i'm sorry i didn't do anything spectacular for you guys, maybe i'll remake my first original meme from 3 years ago or post an animatic or maybe an art dump or something. its time for me to shift gears. get a job, learn to drive, apply to college. I'm really excited for where i'm gonna go in life. i'm really happy about where i am now. there was so much i went through to be the person I am now. ik i wrote a lot, but if theres anyone out there who's maybe doubting themselves, please never give up. i know it sounds cheesy, but don't lose sight of your goals. keep on taking steps towards your goals, even if they're baby steps. your time will come, even if it doesn't seem like it. its time for this generation to move on and for the new one to create its own community. you guys are in the drivers seat and i hope you guys can build your community on better values than ours. i'm really excited for the new scratchers and i can't wait to see where you guys go and what you will accomplish. thanks to everyone whos been so patient with me over the years. you don't know how much it means to me to have people who will stick around even if i'm struggling. maybe i'll try to stop by and be a little more active over the summer. if you have th you can find me as wundervei, i occasionally check the website and every once in a while i'll post art. thank you for sitting through my ted talk and have a great day. i know i said a lot and you might not agree with or understand what i'm saying or where i'm coming from, but i still appreciate it. also happy pride month B)
