i'm not good enough. i'm not good enough for these stupid freaking academy coordinators. i never was, was i? b_llcrap. that's what this is, that's what i'm feeling. Imagine applying for your three dream high schools, then getting basically put on hold until everyone else has already said yes to getting in when they were accepted, and you're still waiting on your favorite. Then imagine your parents talking to you about not feeling down if you didn't get accepted, and your friends trying their best to reassure you. I get it. I get all that. I get it's not the end of the world. I get that i've "gotta keep my head up". I get i've gotta talk about it to my parents sooner or later. I get that the waitinglist is for consideration. I get that not everyone was going to get into the places they wanted to. I get that not all my friends are gonna be happy either. I get that i can try next year. I get than i cna still go to my home school. I get that i don't need to "beat myself up". I get ALL THAT but what they DON'T GET is that i'm still going to be dissapointed. i'm im not good enough not at art not with myself not at life and i don't know what i'm gonna do from here. magical march might be cancelled. it probably will eventually. because if burnout is starting to kick in already, am i good enough to handle this too?
