edit: tysm for the support <3 this wasn't meant to be a vent project but im so happy you guys are so supportive. the person i was addressing unshared their project, this is not a remix of the ota above. just so you know, we're cool now, our dispute was mainly miscommunication i've included the finished redesign. i hope you're happy with it i understand your frustrations, but i'm just here to remind you that: - my leg injury is affecting my physical and mental health - i am not in my peak physical state right now, so it's not just the past few weeks that i've been delaying this because of my leg - i am very busy with exams and counseling sessions - i am not an adult with a stabilized life - i am not a celebrity who is getting paid to do work efficiently - the fact that you said you cared a lot about this offer simply because my art and animations are cool really hurts every day i get bombarded with comments like, "oh my god diamond your art is so cool!!!!! HERE'S AN INVITE!!" "diamond when do you think you'll finish this?? i really like your art its been a week sorry qwqqwq" "DIAMOND! PLEASE DRAW THIS!" it's more than stressful and it makes me debate just hiding away from going online at all of course i understand why you're frustrated, i've experienced waiting months for payments myself. the only thing i am triggered by is the way you are addressing this redesign as if i owe you as some sort of... ticket that you purchased, and now serves as a "slot" of something i owe you which is the feeling i'm getting after you're offering me alternate options of something entirely different from what we agreed on, and after i have clearly already started the redesign and as if i have complete control of my own schedule, i wish that was true. obviously i'm just being cynical, you probably don't mean that you see me completing payments because they were all done on my ipad. i find it rather sad that i only ever do them in the waiting room in my therapy and medical checkups, as the rest of my schedule is swamped with days to make up school work i had missed, or weekly checkups for my leg or my eyesight or my whatever the heck it is that's wrong with my body the only reason i didn't do specific art payments is because the file is on my computer and not my ipad, which i rarely get time to use because i can't bring it to the hospital. your redesign file is on there as well. that's literally it. of course i could've finished it quicker in the past, and that is entirely my own fault. i'm not trying to lash out or accuse you of anything, i'm just so stressed right now this sounds a lot like a vent and i hope i'm not just pouring all my feelings onto you. maybe i'm just vexed because i came back with 5 different comments inviting me to an ota, or begging me to finish something when i literally have 3 appointments, 1 exam and 2 extracirricular classes in a single weekend i like doing payments, they're fun, but whenever someone start reminding me repeatedly when i clearly got the message, my motivation drops and it feels more like a chore anyway, i'm sorry you waited for a long time. it must've been frustrating. i just hope you understand my point of view as well, and the amount of stress i have to deal with and reminders for payments are a cherry on top
