I- I'm scared. I'm scared of being abandoned. All my online friends seem to be leaving and it's really scaring me. I- I don't want to be left again. I don't want to be some lonely id!ot who draws dumb stuff again. What if they all leave-? What if I'll be all alone again? I'm terrified of the future at this point and I don't want people to talk to me just cause they pity me for the loser I am. Why can't I just be happy? Why can't I just be fine for once. Why can't I just stop lying /ALL/ the time? Why am I like this? I don't know why I act like this. Maybe there's something wrong with me. I don't really know. What the heck is wrong with you Chessa!?! Why the heck do you think I'm happy? Is it cause I'm always the annoying brat you see me as? Don't- don't envy me. I don't want this at all. Haha, but I probably deserve it after what I did. Also, side note. BELIEVE me when I say I didn't want to share this at all. However, I didn't want this to stay in me either.
Yeah uh- I'm sorry for all the vent/gore-ish art recently... /gen Why did I share this literally a few minutes after that seemingly upbeat project? I don't know. Don't ask me.
