TW: a lil bit o homophobia, vent, bl00d (click to zoom) *frustrated mm* So. My family and I are in a new town taking a vacation. I bring my tail with me, because of course! When we stop to go walk around the town and get out of the car, my dad tells me I can't wear my tail and have to take it off. My mom later tells me that she would have let me wear it, but I didn't get to because of some hate or whatever. So, I guess my dad has something against furries. Great. My brother keeps telling everyone that I'm a furry whenever I act like an animal. But he knows the difference between a furry and a Therian, knows why I really act that way, and still gives a bad name to the Furry fandom, because I can't stop being a wild animal. Then my mom and I went to get some ramen. As we eat, we end up talking about LGBTQ+ (+ as in every other thing, not supporters, that's how I say it.) She tells me that in her opinion, all other genders other than Male and Female are just made up, that They/them pronouns aren't good and shouldn't be used, and that people with any orientation other than Male/female are people who are "missing something in there lives, at home or school or work, and are trying to find that and make themselves special." (sorta quote, not exact). Of course, this is her opinion. But that stung, because I personally have a mini gender crisis going on. The day before this stuff happened, I went into the snow and hid my hat in it. I was going to search for it and pounce/dig it up like a fox (mental shift or weirdness?) But I couldn't find the hat. Today, my dad came out to help me find it. As we dig, he says something like, Your booksmart, and that will get you a little far, but you don't have common sense and you need common sense to get farther. So now I think because I'm an idiot and can't function like a normal human, I'm gonna d1e young, and no one will remember me because I'm an idiot without common sense, and a stupid weird furry, who supports stuff that my own family doesn't think is valid. I have a horrible feeling, where I feel like my skin is crawling and I want to d1e. I'm not okay and more. i feel like i dont get enough sleep. im teird and an idot. and through all of it i act perfectly happy, perfectly fine. its alright if you dont care, who would.
