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soooo- i didnt have any vent pics nor wanted to make one lol- but uhm- i feel like my brains working less and less but no one cares- i said something to my mom she said, your not drinking enough water [thats true] and not getting enough sleep [true] so i did, i have been trying to get to bed at a better time (its been working a bit, since we have winter/christmas break i have been sleeping in till like 9:00 - 9:40 sometimes 10:00) so yea- its been like 7 nights that i have gotten pretty good sleep (with school and stuff- lol-) but yea.... then i tried drinking water (idk i hate water it tastes like water--) but i did but i drink a bit at a time because i think my bodies rejecting the water- since i was drink some cuz i was thirsty or kinda idk i cant tell anymore- but i was drink then my body was trying to stop me so i had to force myself to swallow the water, it hurt alot aswell and i think i have been forgeting to breath.... i will not breath for like a minute then start breathing, and i havent been able to remember simple things.... and i need to sit around more now.....Its worrying me a bit..... its gotten so out of hand i've been craving some human meat- i- i dont know- i will be hungry/thirsty and want to taste blxxd or want to bite someone- its not normal i know- ik- ik- but- but...... the desire hasnt died down... i still want to drink blxxd....i had a dream where i was in a void full of crystals, and then after a bit i heard a voice and i started trying to run, but the voice said, 'drink it' or 'drink the blxxd' after a few minutes of laughing and shaking i c-t my wrist open drinking my blxxd.......... when i woke up, i felt pain all through my body and....and i felt dizzy but my wrist was fine, but it had felt like i had been laughing...i.... am...... i dying....? ...... am..... I....? ............ and no one really cares by this point....??? my...my friends think im playing around.... im not.... i...i tried digging into their MINDS im..im not doing...good... or... am... I mentally... ill....?
edit like- 10 secounds after posting: I think i sing much better now :)
