All lot of you may think that I'm this, cheerful, positive person online. But that is completely false. Behind the screen, I am hurting all over. Physically and mentally. When someone says they like my art or stuff, I just end up wondering how long until they just, don't like me. I have so many insecurities that I don't share cause I'm looking at other people's problems and I just think mine don't matter. My mom recently told me that if I feel like this, I should talk to her or my dad about it. But I just...don't. They're stressed enough as it is and I don't want them to worry about me. Don't get me wrong, I am very grateful to be surrounded by amazing friends, online and real life. But I'm always so afraid that they'll at some point start ignoring me, then leave me, eventually moving on. What next? I'll be alone again. I don't know what to do anymore. I am just so tired of smiling my problems away. They come back sooner or later and I can't take it anymore. I'm sick and tired of acting like I'm 'fine' when I'm not.
