my year has been rough. my cousin, the closest person to me, moved to florida. my friend is moving to hawaii, my teacher practically belongs in a mental asylum because of what she has said to us. its horrible. you know, online i feel like im supposed to be calmer. online, i'm supposed to be nice and funny and welcoming and i dont need to do this because nobody cares, because no one needs to know how i'm doing, they just need to know that i'll be funny and happy, i'll be the person they can talk with when they are down. i want to be that person, but i just cant. i have problems of my own, and i try to push them aside so i can help you guys, but its like a slingshot. the farther i push them away, the harder it'll hit whenever i remember them. i'm sorry for rambling.
