I CANT TAKE IT- I WANT TO RIP MY HAIR OUT I WANT TO SL[!t] MY THROAT Why...? He was my everything...then he backstabbed me...4 times..... loved me.....he hurt me... He said he loved me..... he h u r t me.... He said we were back to lovers.......he....he h u r t m e..... He said we could be friends cuz i got a bf...... He.... H u r t.... M e Why... Just end me... I wanna hurt myself.. but when i grab a sharp object and press it on my skin, i get afraid and stop.... Whats wrong with me... I cant be my self...i have to be someone else... Im only happy when aidens around.......no one else.... Jax hurt me...sent me horrible stuff...... My mum blocked him..l......he hurt me...... Aiden makes me happy.... But everyone else hates him.... Even my friends will say, 'some people fall in love with the wrong people sometimes' and their talking about us.... But...is it wrong..? I...i love him.... But hate myself.... I get scared when asked questions....im so horrible... My art style is so ugly... Everyone hates it....i cant... I love drawing animals.... But i cant.... No one approves me..... P l e a s e... God..... You made a mistake! Take me back! Take me BAAAAAAAAAAACK!!!!!!!!! I HATE LIFE Im afraid of my dad...he doesnt hit me...but hes yelled horrible things to me...i get afraid of when he yells..... My mom...shes afraid too i think...... I love my mom...but she doesnt know how afraid i am..... I wanna...i wanna leave.... My brother hurts me.. He hurts me with words and actions..... Everyones mean to me- Someone...help me.... Im so done.... Im scared i want to d!e SAVE ME SOMEONE...... I DONT WANT TO GO BUT I DO SOMEONE HELP ME My parents think its a small phase but its not..i have bipolar depression.... I wasnt..told that I took 6 different tests...saying i did.. And i wasnt told i have anxiety... But 15 different tests told me i did.... I wanna cry..but i cant......
