--- I feel like I'm causing people to feel bad or mentally suffer; they say they are fine, but I know how they actually feel. I also wish people wouldn't gossip so much; I got called a "fraud" & a "piece of junk" today because I acted a certain way; I don't get why I can't express myself? My Science teacher rolled her eyes at me as she saw me walk and talk to my friends. She looked at me like I was crazy or something. What did I ever do to you? I don't know if this is just me, but I loathe making people feel negatively or just terrible in general about me. I hope you know if you're one of my friends who are thinking of what I am.. I hope that I'm not a problem because right now, I feel like a physical and mental issue to society and I needed to get this crap off my chest. One more thing: I've been positively looking at things lately, but when you judge me & say stuff like that it's not okay, because I need you to realize that I'm not a robot. In other words, I have feelings. I'm not just a little robot that you can mentally hurt and make fun of and do all those things. Why do people choose to do this ? It's hurtful. At my school peprally, it was physically painful to hold back tears and stop them from rolling down my cheeks. I knew people would surround me asking if I was okay, which I don't mind, it's kind, I love when people care. It's a nice action, but I didn't need that. I felt I needed to keep it to myself and not make other people worried about my problems, because God knows what they might be going through; I don't wanna put pressure on them... God, it feels so good to get these feelings off my chest... Thank you. Thank you for listening to me vent. I appreciate that. I appreciate you. <3 ---
