Edgy warning- The cross on my forehead that is shown in this is just something I added to ig show my Christianity? Idk- I hope it's not gonna be something that offends or anything and I'm hoping it's not like offending a religion as well- but I think in christianity it means you belong to Jesus or something. Ok so this is the first time i've done an animation with myself in it- ...............well GOOD animation that had me in it- I did this in a day-? .........................Oh also this part of the song is actually like SPOT ON my childhood with my grandma.......................I loved her and i still do, and i wanted to help spread the word of the 'One and only God' but now i question all of christianity and i honestly never wanna go back to it again because of how messed up it truly is and how unloving it is when 'God' literally says in their bible to LOVE EVERYBODY and they say 'Oh listen to this god tells us to love our neighbor as ourself so we gonna do it' then turn right back round and judge other religions, people who are LGBTQ+, People who are different...............Abortions...........................And my grandparents are one of those christians! i've seen her get a bit weirded (and probably also judging) out by my intrerests, judging my characters, my dad, my sisters identity, and probably close to judging MY identity. I've heard her and my grandpa judge Abortions and go 'Whoo hoo!" at protests saying things like 'Abortion is killing the baby! And that is a sin!' and stuff like that WHEN SOMETIMES THE MOTHER WHO COULD EVEN BE A CHILD OR KIND OF UNHEALTHY WITHOUT BEING ABLE TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT LIKE MY MOM WOULD DIE. AND I JUST WANNA ASK THEM IF MY MOM WHERE TO HAVE A FOURTH CHILD IN HER WOMB, WOULD THEY WANT THE GRANDCHILD TO MAKE IT THROUGH, OR THEIR OWN CHILD! ......................................And how they would react if someone they knew and loved became gay..........................................................i wanna tell them its not a choice, i wanna tell them that christianity is so very messed up and yes i know that there are some christian churches that are much more supporting than the others, but still the rest are just so freaking messed up............When i was younger i thought christianity was the best thing ever and would solve all of the problems and every single time i heard someone talk about god i would shut up and listen because i was just so interested and wanted to travel around the world and help others and also tell them about God.........................................but now i just want to have a life where i can safely be a lesbian demigirl who can trust her entire family without being judged.............................but thats not ever gonna happen and i know it. But it hurts so very much to know that and have to accept that..................so far like everything they judge is something i am and/or support. My dad cant change the way he looks, me, my mom, and my sister cant change our identities, abortians are just saving a life that is currently living not taking the life of a baby that doesnt even exist yet, other queer people cant change their identities either, just because someones weird doesnt mean you should judge them, they all are supposedly loving everybody but also judging everybody at the same time, My grandparents freaking voted for a freaking rascist, who has done other stuff that im not gonna list, for president of the U.S.A. when they are against some of that stuff im sure.....................I thought i could atleast trust my grandma, but she is quickly proving that she isnt that trustworthy.................i hate it so much and im happy that i have one my mothers brothers and his wife, my parents, my siblings, my dads adoptive mom, his birth mother who is sisters with the mom who raised him, and the brother he was raised with. But still i wanna be able to trust my other grandma...................She also doesnt like spooky stuff and really REALLY doesnt like witchy stuff............................WHICH IS THE EXACT STUFF IM INTO. ISNT THAT GREAT. LIFE IS AWESOME. EVERYTHING IS AMAZING OVER HERE.............OH ALL THET FIRE EVERYWHERE? DONT MIND THAT ITS NORMAL- T V T They told me that because i was so kind and carin i would become a child of god or some bullcrap and that i would use that kindness to spread the word, but instead its showing me all the things that are wrong with this world and how wrong and messed up christianity is. Now im not trying to offend anybody that is christian here but still how messed up their religion it just ties me up into a knot so often and causes me to want to never go back to that religion again more. ........................................Yeah umm i might end up finishing the animation with the Dismembermant song late but oh well-
Coding: is mine........ Art: is mine......... Song: Rat by Penelope scott........i don't remember what the song I added at the end is but it's like REALLY reminding me of the credits in the owl house- Characters: also......mine- their all personas (The first ones name is Anne and shes one of my personas...........she ummm she actually represents my anxiety and edgy stuff. her like three only states of mind are Scared, thinking about ALL the bad stuff that could happen, and thinking in the past- She wears a very dark blue turtle neck sweater, blueish gray pants, and has black hair that represents all the bad thoughts in my little head as well..........and it looks like there is a shadow that takes up like half? of her face. The second one is Rainbow and she was pretty much the first one. She is the persona that has not a ducking clue what is going on. She is the little repsonsible thoughts and kind thoughts that i'll have sometimes..........ofc the kind thoughts appear alot more then the responsible ones- oh also the confused thoughts. Usually she wears hoodies but sometimes she'll wear a mint green turtle neck and light purple pants, and she has brown hair. Then theres chaos child. They are something and they always appear in the wierdest of places and they represent everything wierd in my itty bitty brain thats full of imagination and wierd and G A Y. They are the shortest persona and they look kind of like a gremlin but also a demon. they are also the chaotic thoughts. They could have any colorful type of hair color and they will wear just about anything and they have teeny lil demon horns and very stubby legs and a small tail. Next up is Pastel they are ALLLLLL the fuzzy cute thoughts and ALLLLLLLLL the spoopy thinkies in my brain that i love entirely........oh also more of the gay thinks. She has a big eye that is basically- N O /IS/ her head and on each side of her eye there are wingies, and the rest of her looks more human ig and usually she is wearing a choker and anything spooky and/or cute. And last is Bree who is my second persona ever and she is my fursona and represents my furry side and my imagination which is wierd and cute and teensy bit edgy. She can switch the animal she looks like actually, in this the animal she looks like a wolf or a husky? and she wears hoodies and t-shirts. My personas will switch around sometimes, usually depending on how im feeling. right now i keep thinking about my past and stuff...........and feeling scared about how my grandma will react to me coming out of the closet with her eventually.......)
