I can't do this anymore... every little thing makes me burst into tears now, if a friend is going on holiday for a week and I'm not gonna talk to them for that length of time I start crying... I never used to do this but since leiana I can't stop... Leiana can't ruin the cyclist or my happiness, but I just can't help it... I feel sick right now and my mum keeps bugging me and she wouldn't get it so I'm not gonna tell her about leiana she would just be like "BE CAREFUL ONLINE". I don't want these things to rattle me. All of this is why the cyclist - and sharing the cyclist - matters a lot to me </3 and also well leiana left for seven weeks, that's when our friendship fell down a hole, I worry if someone leaves for like a week they won't wanna be my friend when they come back...