Yep. Another one of these things. Someone in my server said "oh I haven't done S3E14 yet sorry" (not the exact words btw) and I replied saying I have more important things to worry about and ended up with 19 FREAKING POINTS- obviously not all are "advice worthy" because one of the points was "S3E12 reminders" but this might be the most points I've ever made one of these- here goes- at first (like first four or smth are in order of how much they're worrying me and the rest were kinda just strewn together so lol) 1. My reminder person (the person who was doing reminders for me on wednesday) I won't name who it is, because I just wanna talk about it, because yeah I'm slightly annoyed but how everything resulted (besides one thing) isn't really her fault. Firstly, she said she'd do reminders on Wednesday for me (like four times) so I trusted her. When she hadn't gotten on and I noticed on Thursday I started panicking. She messaged me 4am Saturday BST and when I woke at 6am on Saturday I checked dacord and saw it and got pretty mad because she said it "didn't send" (I don't believe that card anymore because of point 3 in the previous one of these, see: https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/717443471/ ) and she sent the reminder 24 hours after I'd get home so- but after another point I'll mention later I don't think her not sending a reminder would've made a difference, the actor hadn't been online since tuesday anyway. SECONDLY, SHE MESSAGED THE WRONG ACTOR- okay regarding point 3 in the project above about the actor who I thought was my friend and everything, well she messaged that one...the one I'm not on good terms with, because she looked at the old cast studio I can't edit so I got pretty freaked out and angry about that one. Cause I wanted to message her in my own time and under my own terms I don't want it to happen when I'm not ready to talk to her. She was the former actor of said character that wasn't done for S3E11. 2. Communicate helps...guys... Well, onto the second point about the above, and my new former actor who lost her role yesterday (this entire chain of events is probably so confusing to everyone now, I might as well say the character is livie just so it's a little more understandable and I can say stuff like livie's former actor instead). Okay, last Sunday I messaged four people to tell them S3E11 was due on Wednesday (a reminder basically, not anything abnormal, just a plain reminder) livie's now former actor ("now" because the person I thought I was friends with was livie's second actor, and also former actor) replied to me being like "I'll do it on the 2nd or 3rd!" and I trusted her cause we *were* friends (I'm seeing a pattern here, it's always the friends that hurt me...and obviously if they're a friend it hurts more...and it's rarely someone I barely know that does this to me...) You're supposed to trust your friends...right? All of this is just making my trust issues worse... Then on Friday when that other friend in point 1 (I'm not saying we're not friends lol, I just don't want to reveal who she is, I'm only ever trusting levi with reminders now for that matter-) she said she reminded livie's actress again (this is about the actress not the reminder), obviously she didn't, but I knew livie wasn't done and I sent her a couple of messages on watt pad telling her stuff like she had 10 hours left and stuff, I'd already given four extra days. When I got home there was nothing, my messages made me cry (for multiple reasons, I will get onto that) and later that night she left an announcement on watt pad saying she was going for 3 months. So...you think it's right to just leave an undone script four days after the deadline then make a leaving announcement and still don't tell me when I know you checked your messages? And I saw her scratch profile this morning and she said a similar thing, I also saw she'd replied to someone last night so duh of course she could've just said smth to me, maybe then I'd appreciate it more. I really don't want to talk to her and I might have to kick her out of "broken" (it's still happening, I just need smth and I will talk about that later) But yeah... 3. Quitting VA someone who I thought was a friend - I found out yesterday - had removed me from their cast even though I specifically said that I wasn't quitting and my VA account is active. I'm literally done with crap directors, I'm not even kidding. I'm stricter than most, but...I'd never intentionally upset or hurt my cast members, and I know I never have (what I mean is I haven't hurt them as a cast member, I might have hurt them in other ways, but not like that, I'll admit that), part of that is probably because I know what it's like to feel hurt and...betrayed? :( (cont in N+C)
(cont from instructions) 4. PEOPLE DOING ONE SCRIPT BEFORE ANOTHER I was already in a bad mood so this made things worse, but someone who I've trusted since mid freaking 2020 did S3E14 and not S3E13. this just reminds me of point 4 in: https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/717443471/ AAAAAH 5. this is gonna be hard- I can do it, but because of everything that happened yesterday I'm going to struggle to work on S3E11 and S2P8, the release date for both is today, I'm just gonna find it hard due to actor situations :( 7. Trust Honestly, right now I only trust Levi and Angel. That's not to say I don't trust you, or I hate you or anything. It's more to say they're the two I could trust with anything. In the past five months so many friends have broken trust it's so hard now. Like I might not extremely trust you, but you might not have done anything to prove lots of trust, which doesn't mean I DON'T trust you. There's also some people I just don't trust with anything... I'm supposed to trust my friends. Believe me that's been extremely difficult. Since 8th March, five months ago, trust has been hard. Oh gosh five month anniversary of that dreadful day tomorrow- Also tomorrow it'll be three months until Cyclist's 2nd anniversary. TWO YEARS OF CYCLIST!!! I also missed "broken" anniversary which was 17th July. 9. I MISS YOUTH CAMP after yesterday I wanna stay there forever: https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/719968316/ 10. I WANT MY FRIEND TO COME HOME FROM VACATION because I'm selfish. no seriously I just want someone I trust to talk to. Also Angel's (another friend yknow) at camp now so :(((( I think the friend is back VERY soon though (might be today). 11. actors. honestly just actors. but livie's new actress did the lines like immediately so yay! if you wanna see who she is go to the new cast studio (she wants to be anonymous on youtube) 12. I miss so much I used to do on scratch I probably said this in the last but it still stands...I just wanna be normal again... 13. S3E15 the last scene is VERY dark - levi agreed there XD so um yeah, the three actors in it are perfectly okay with it but if you don't wanna see dark stuff then just don't read the final scene in S3E15. 14. I have lots of lines to catch up on I think I need to add 12 lines projects, I got 11 during camp, might've been more than last time- even though I got less messages >:( (like 59) 15. FIND ME AN ACTOR FOR FINN PLEASE. literally please. I don't have many males in "broken" so it's a lot easier than the cyclist where I stole all the voice actors who do males from the VA community. And I asked someone a week and a half ago who didn't reply so PLEASE HELP. he was voiced by @leiana52 and he's 14, deepish voice. 16. literally everything else. Yep. thank you for reading, please give advice for at least some if you can <3
