Heyy, so, uh, if you haven't heard I recently got diagnosed with actual depression. Like- really very not good. It really brought me down, you know? I started getting really bad thoughts and trying to... erm... stop existing. And I still am. I don't feel any better. It's only gotten worse. My girlfriend left me. She told me to get help. I already miss her. That's so stupid. These stupid fEELINGS ARE ATTACKING ME AND I FEEL VERY VERY BETRAYED My friend left me. They told me to see a doctor. I miss them. A lot. I miss getting ice cream... STUPID //FEELINGS// I'm going to see a therapist. My mom found someone who can 'fix me' I'm going to get better. I'm going to get better and rub it in my stupid (if you're reading this I'm very sorry you're not stupid you're absolutely incredible and I'm sorry I wasn't enough) ex's face and show her that I am very much fine and super awesome and she doesn't deserve me because I'm awesome and very much moved on because I am better than I think I am. Maybe. If I make it through summer. I... might not. ANYWAY I'm going in hiatus for about a week. Not because of feelings (ew feelings) but because I'm going on vacation with my family! We're going to Gettysburg! I'll check comments some days, but I won't post much. Ciao ~ Toonces
