Recently i have told my parents (they r not my real parents) that im gender fluid and it didnt go so well. Even tho im not hurt by what questions they have about it- i had previously gotten in a argument with my mother trying to explain how i felt and who i am now, but she said something i could never forget. No kid should ever hear that they have something wrong with them just bc they aren’t the way the parents wanted them to be. She brought up something i did in my past- Yes it was bad- but its been a couple years since then and she tends to hold it against me to win an argument. Back then i was recommended therapy for what i had done.. i refused it bc i i knew there was nothing wrong with me. She always told me i should have did it. But this recent argument she told me it again but she also said my head was messed up n i never think right.. the woman told me she should have put me thru therapy anyways AND sent me to a psychiatrist.. I assure you tht im not crazy n there is nothing wrong with wanting to be yourself.. The woman is against people like me. People who are not “normal.” Going along with tht, idk if your even looking at my projects james but i miss you. I’m sorry im not living up to ur expectations.. i want to be better for you and others but my parents just ruin a lot thts going for me. Many relationships I’ve had in the past and even now wit u n others.. I’ve been nothing but horrible, annoying, indecisive, two faced, clingy and a liar. 90% of the time i dont even know im doing it until its been done or said already.. there is alot i wish i could take back n did differently. But idk ig things rn are meant be like this- Maybe times will get better and my heart will stop breaking. Then again maybe not o-o
Ugh why is life frustrating? >->
