What the hell...? What the hell?? Is this a nightmare? It...has to be. This isn't real. There's no way this can be real. Sayori wouldn't do this. Everything was normal up until a few days ago. That's why I can't believe what my eyes are showing me...! I suppress the urge to vomit. Just yesterday... I told Sayori I would be there for her. I told her I know what's best and that everything will be okay. Then why...? Why would she do this...? How could I be so helpless? What did I do wrong? Confessing to her... I shouldn't have confessed to her. That's not what Sayori needed at all. She even told me how painful it is for others to care about her. Then why did I confess to her, and make her feel even worse? Why was I so selfish? This is my fault--! My swarming thoughts keep telling me everything I could have done to prevent this. If I just spent more time with her. Walked her to school. And gave what I know she wanted out of our relationship... ...Then I could have prevented this. I know I could have prevented this! Screw the Literature Club. Screw the festival. I just...lost my best friend. Someone I grew up with. She's gone forever now. Nothing I do can bring her back. This isn't some game where I can reset and try something different. I had only one chance, and I wasn't careful enough. And now I'll carry this guilt with me until I die. Nothing in my life is worth more than hers... But I still couldn't so what she needed from me. And now... I can never take it back. Never. Never. Never. Never. Never...
