Ah. So. Here is a rant, I guess. Or maybe a vent? So, I really wish I knew what to do with myself. I want to keep the last precious moments that are going to come out of my grasp when I go into middle school next semester. When I came into The Wild Clans RP, I really felt like “Oh! This could be fun!” And it really was for the first few months. Then after that, it felt like reality shifted and I was dropped into a dark hole. Everyone seemed to have their characters being best friends and being so interactive with each other, and even out of character everyone seemed to be in this big friend group. Even people that joined after me. Then, I TRIED to rp, to see if I would feel better. Then I started to really see everyone else role playing and meanwhile, I ask if anyone wants to and I feel ignored. So then I got overly stressed and my activity level went from 10 straight to 0. Then being the overly sensitive person that I was just born as, my head started to hurt, I felt dizzy and sick, I felt like I was burning up as the waves of sadness and anger rushed over me. I’ve truly always had trouble finding people that understand me, and that was no different. Honestly, I love all of you, and it’s not you, it’s me. I don’t know WHAT, but it is. And now I feel like I’m neglecting my character and honestly, I want to stay, but I just don’t know what to do. I don’t. Please nobody be offended by my personal feelings or anything. I’m just not sure what to do anymore.
