If you're wondering what I'm up to, here you go. I'm still kinda active, but I've been debating if I really want to be on Scratch or not. First of all, the iPad I use to draw isn't charging even if it's plugged in, so I won't be able to draw until I get a new charger. Second of all, I don't feel like continuing Warrior Dogs. It started out as a fun passion project, then it started to feel like a chore for me. I don't really like it anymore, I just do it to please my audience. It's like I'm trapped in a vicious cycle where I work on one episode, release it, get views and compliments, then people start begging for the next. Rinse and repeat until the series finishes. And of course, even when I think it's a good idea to quit, a part of my brain keeps worrying that my viewers will be disappointed and they'll guilt trip me into making the next episode, which leads me into forcing myself to keep working. Third of all, I am trying to recover from my anxiety and refuel my creativity. I made Warrior Dogs during the beginning of the COVID pandemic. It used to be a way for me to cope with self-isolation and reduce boredom during online school. Now that the pandemic is over and I go to school in person, it's getting in between me and my goal of getting all A's. In the middle of 8th grade, I was diagnosed with anxiety and after a bit of thinking, I soon realized that maybe Scratch is causing it. After all, I worry about too many notifications and disappointed viewers. Plus, Warrior Dogs is basically sucking the creativity out of me and making me feel guilty for working on anything else. So, at the end of the day, my brain is just a colorless blob of art block. On the other hand, I don't want to leave because I still want to get praise, validation, and support from all my followers. I still need to continue Warrior Dogs until it ends, even if it tortures me. I don't want to leave because I've already made a handful of online friends on here and my art has improved greatly. Should I leave or not? That's for you to decide.
