This is a vent..about my art. I really feel like I wouldn’t get personal like this, but well, here goes. I really will never get this open about personal stuff again. I am a really sensitive person sometimes, and it makes me a bit insecure about my art. I really never want to show it to anyone anymore because I’m afraid I’ll get judged about it more than I already do. I CAN tell the difference between “It looks great! I love it!” And “It’s..uhm..interesting.” And when people sometimes so much as look at me sideways because of my art, it make me want to cry, run from it, hide it a corner, destroy it. I don’t. I simply say “Oh..yeah heh..I didn’t even try. I was just trying to be funny.” But I really never am. I work for hours on something sometimes, and that is what I always say when I get those negative interactions. It happens SO MUCH. But that isn’t all of it. People will ask me if I can draw them or draw someone, and I say no. It’s my choice, but the look of disappointment makes me feel so guilty and stressed. And other times when people ask me to draw something for them. Same thing. It’s awful and it makes me so stressed and angry and sad and insecure about my art. That is why I feel I don’t need to put effort, since it will look awful either way. People need to understand, you don’t realize you may be hurting someone with your criticism, even if you are just trying to help. Think before you say anything. It’s also why I don’t like the way some people deal with MAP forms. I’d rather someone say “Sorry, I’m looking for more experience.” Because I know I’m not bound to be the best, but I hate the fact that people decide that if they don’t say anything, people realize that they were rejected. Please don’t feel hurt by this. I feel awful when people don’t say anything, and I go to see if I was accepted, and I see nobody says anything to me, and the parts I want are taken by others. It makes me so upset. I want to cry, because I feel like I’m not enough, and that my art and animation would be too terrible to look good in it. Also, it makes me feel so upset sometimes, that to even be noticed, to even get 20 views on something, and one comment, someone with fame on here has to love it, and not even really ever come back to it, or say anything. I’d like to thank Peck, Ombra, and Quills. You guys are so amazing and are keeping me upright right now. I’d also like to thank my friend “E”. She was a great friend last year and we are still great friends even though we are now 15 hours apart. You guys are so great and supportive. Well, I guess that’s it. Thanks for you guys that have been so great.
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