Each day, I tell myself, 'It's okay, just be happy, nothing is wrong....' I repeat it over and over in my head until it seems true. But it's not. None of my friends really see who I am... All they see is a happy person who is always carefree and existed, but really, I'm super stressed out and nervous and self-conscious on the inside... I have so much going on, and I'm struggling with the whole gender/sexuality crisis thing. I'm trying to support my irl friends with their problems while I'm still not sure of myself and how I'm gonna solve my problems. I'm currently trying to be a competitive athlete, illustrate a page for a book, compete in science olympiad, deal with homework deal with middle school drama, and still be figuring myself out. I'm putting so much stress and pressure on myself, and it's dragging me down. I just don't really know what to do... I normally don't vent on scratch, but I just kinda needed to type this up. sorry...
