I...need a break. from...scratch. I'd take a break from life too but that's not an option. there's a bunch of reasons why I'm doing this. 1) Secret Santa. originally this event was hosted by an amazing person named @GalaxywatcherOfNight then hosted by @Sunii_days but due to some technical difficulties @Sunii_days asked someone else to take charge. I volunteered. I've done a few events before. collab OTA's and a mall sim so I thought I could handle this. I can. barely. I'm OK with the event itself. I'm not OK with the participants. leaving, quitting here and there. it made pairings impossible. I needed to replace someone every day. no. every hour. a few weeks later I signed everyone back up. people kept yelling at me for pairs. it sucked to be honest. every. single. day. I'm a person who always appreciates comments. these kinds though? they tick me off. I screamed the best way I could online. most of you apologized. thanks for that. but there is ONE person (EXACTLY one) who was all like "oh stop yelling blah blah blah my life's terrible" I could barely contain myself. LIKE REALLY?! DOES YOUR HORRIBLE LIFE STOP YOU FROM READING?! I might be immature here (probably am) but I just really couldn't help it. finally the pairings are over. which means my yellings are done right? nope. now I got people asking me to join. great. /sarc I'm going to say something. you guys make it sound like I have no life. like I never said "stop" a bunch of times. well first of all I DID write "stop" and surprise! I do have a life! shocker right? now before I have no room to write anything else I'm moving along. 2) grades/school. I have TEN assignments ALL DUE IN ONE DAY!!! EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!! My grades are slipping. let's just say I spend way too much time on Scratch and too little time on work. yes I know this one is my fault but it doesn't really matter who's fault it is because it still adds stress to me. my parents took away literally everything. games, art, drawing, scratch, puzzles, toys...everything that's not related to school. I know I sound childish but...my family...is...not...the greatest to say the least. issues would be the vaguest but descriptive word here. 3) social life. in online school I can't have friends. cameras are off preventing me from really knowing what people think and even if they are there. I'm really nervous in real life and worse online. my only friend is @Avengersendgameava but they left to go to in person school. now I'm stuck being this "ghost kid". no my classmates don't call me that I call myself that. because it's like I'm only there is spirit. you can see me in the square tiles in the meet but I never talk. that's...really all I think I can share. Scratch please don't take this down. might edit some parts tomorrow to prevent this from coming down. thanks for letting me waste your time. I'll come back. after Christmas (February at most) I'll be working on AT's, DT's, OTAP's, Gachapons and other stuff too. maybe. this entire thing is negative and serious in case you didn't notice. guess I'll add these tone indicators. /neg /srs / edit: kinda failing at this ;-; then again it's night- I'll see in the morning...hopefully I can stay away from scratch- edit: oh thanks for 120+ followers too :) this is prob the only positive note on the whole project lol Edit: k so this is pretty impossible for me to do so I'm only coming online ONCE in the morning, afternoon and night ^^ so only online 3 times to check for messages :) Edit: gonna create a comment chain to say what's happening in my life? just like school related XD Edit: urghh I kinda hate the thumbnail ;-; I drew it on mouse don't judge ples- Edit: my dad took away my drawing tablet. I can only do un-coloured traditional. Edit: read my comment reply to @WarriorZofLife (also check them out their really nice <3)
