ahoy there. -------- ever felt so bad that you wanted to- oh welp, this is a kids website. but have you ever felt SO SO SO SO bad that you didn't want to exist? -------- i feel like that every day. -------- i moved at the age of 7 form Isreal to California because it was better for our family. There I moved 3 houses and areas. My life was awesome, 2nd grade was chalanging because I had to learn English but i learned it very fast (i made this acc with my dad). 3rd grade was harder. we learned cursive, and had to write our names in cursive once we learned all the letters in our name. 4th grade was awesome, i learned that i was very good at math and i made some friends, Kate (@nightmare_darklight), Nikita (@CatLoverNightshade), and Jecht (i forgot how to spell his name haha, and no he doesn't have scratch acc. at least not that i know.) 5th grade came fast, i moved schools and beraly had any more playdates with Kate, Nikita nor Jecht. But i made some more friends, Maya V., Maya R, Erica, Sunny, Luca(haha luca). but i also made enemies while trying to make new friends, like Aliya, she and her popular group (my dad's company was breaking down then another company (AFLAC i think thats how you spell it) bought his company) . guess what? then.... BOOOM! COVID :DDD i started 6th grade online and it was so hard to focus. i also started my @i3am acc around that time. i started drawing online, abt 3 months later i bought a drawing pad and pencil (for drawing online). then one day, i was having lunch with my family when my dad told me that he has good news! (we hated AFLAC, because they were liars) my dad told me and my sisters that he found a new job! We hopped out of our chairs and started dancing and celebrating. but the new job came with a price... my dad then told us that he had more news, so we sat back down and listened. He told us then that we were moving to Canada. though we at first thought he was joking, we realized he was not. my whole world broke that minute. i also had a playdate with my other friends (Tamar and Zainab) that day. So i told them and it broke their hearts. Bit by bit I told all my friends and broke all their hearts. but the heart that was the most broken was mine. i knew that i had to make new friends.... which is SO SO SO SO hard for me. wow i am crying as i am writing this haha. 3 months later we moved and our poor 18-year-old cat panicked and meowed the whole flight and ride to Canada. When we got to the entrance to Canada we had to wait like 5 hours before they let us in. then quarantine for 2 weeks YAYAYAYAY!!! once we found a house my dad got us schools. 6 months later we finished school and i still have no friends in Canada. EVEN after i was in Canada for half, HALF a year. haha summer break! still no friends. my parents not understanding how hard this was for me.(and my parents still not understanding.) me finding out who i am. everyday i cry myself to sleep, ever since we moved. i want to scream. rip out my hair. hurt myself. hug my cat furiously. but most of all i JUST WANT THIS ALL TO STOP. STOP THE PAIN. my cat is very old (18 is like 88 in cat years) he can die any day, any hour, any minute, any second. what will i do when he is gone? he sister, (Roti) passed away not long ago. that was hard enough for me. haha wow you read all that.wowwowowowow. i am so depressed rn. oh welp, go ahead and leave. my life and problems are not yours and you don't need to take care of them. OH HAHAHA i TOTTALY don't need someone to talk too. and yes i have a therapist. but i haven't talked to her in 2 weeks because she visited Israel and then came back to California. but i don't even tell her everything. gramerly leave me alone i know this this has grammar and spelling issues. shut up gramerly. yes i am worried, nervous, and sad. no I'm not sad. IM SUPPER DEPRESSED GRAMLY LEAVE ME ALONE WILL YOU?! where did i go wrong? i lost a friend.... somewhere along in the bitterness... *quietly sobs* haha caio. congrats on reading all of that. I'm sorry if i made you feel bad :( because if i did, i so sorry :((( (haha kate my triple chin B]]] ) i also realized that people only comment and support me on my templates and art projects and not my vent were i feel pain. (most of you) all my other projects have like 50 views and this one only has 2. do you guys only care about my coding and art? because if you do i will delete my account and leave scratch. maybe i will create a new account and start there from scratch. but i don't want to. so please make me feel like you only check out my stuff not because i am good at coding or because I'm good at art. tysm for reading. <3
my cat's 19 now, double the chance.
