... I cant seem to get the pain out verbally, my emotions shut down, i lose my focus, I say I'm fine when im not, I get panic attacks, I hate myself as a person, family member, girlfriend, friend, inspiration.
I want to cry but nothing comes out, just empty. Nothing left, I need them and their attention, it gives me so much happiness and I like the butterflies i get. Now they're grounded and I probably won't see them for a while..
