I know people don't read descriptions these days, but whateverr. I just know in the future people are going to be like "Octolinggg why did you do that?" And I'm just going to link them this project because. Yes. So if you're here because you clicked on your own free will...as the title states it is in fact the end. I'm done. Done with it all. And no I'm not leaving scratch don't worry xD So, this has been bothering me for awhile now. Everything blowing up popular these days has been these beautiful, colorful, vivid, rendered, and polished works of art. And I can confidently state well over majority of the people my age follow these standers quite strongly. Yes yes and with my own twist of coarse, I set blindly on the same path. I mean who doesn't want to make beautiful and eye catching art? Well. Not me. I think the only reason I even do these crazy paintings is because I feel pressured to do so. Cause by far it's never the inked line sketches that blow up. No. No one even pays a glance to them. It always the pretty ones. If you ever get to see inside one of my sketch books, you will find nothing with thin pretty line quality and the gel pens. Nope, just rough jagged lines filling the page. It was while watching a art stream it really hit me. I didn't feel burnt out. I didn't feel art block no I felt a weird felt hollow pit in me. Like no matter how pretty and polished I made my art it wouldn't matter. Someone would always make something flashier. Just like the public wants. Pretty and flashy. My parents could see something was wrong cause after dinner I didn't run up to draw, I just sat at the table and try to make since of the weird thing I was feeling. And after I was forced to explain it all to them they told me to stop. Stop doing the pretty stuff do what I wanted to do. And just like that the hollow feeling was filled. I'm not gonna do what everyone wants me to do. I'm gonna draw what I want. And frankly, I haven't been able to do that for awhile so this is a nice change. Yeah no more crazy shading. Nope. So have fun without me. Cause I don't care about the pretty gradient shading tool you use to hide up your structure errors. I don't care about the glow and gleam you put on your art. Cause you know what? I don't study anatomy for nothing everyday.
