Totally not procrastinating- I swear- This is Nicholas, my anxiety's fursona. Why? Because why not have something to blame for all those times you're crying and terrified of everything while trying to fall asleep? :D Yeah! Let me explain his f e a t u r e s. So his base being a fox, and foxes are associated with trickery. Trickery is like lying and I often get panic attacks that people are lying to me and everybody hates me and aauuughhh- but i'm sure you get the point, fake friends, people wanting clout and stuff. His little butterfly wings represents both my fear of insects (and spiders never forget that!) and my fear of rejection. My fear of rejection two sides. One being rejected from a relationship, wether its friends, dating, family etc. This has a long backstory of which I will only tell people who actually care enough to ask. The other side is more so of people leaving me, kinda rejecting being in my life. From someone (or something) dying to being broken up with it gives me massive panic attacks. He has a tail (which you can't see in the meme unfortunately) but it's a red panda tail, for me red pandas are associated with mystery (idk about anyone else) and I'm scared of the unknown. Like for example, my future. I constantly plan things even if they don't happen. Like my dad will tell me we're going to the grocery store. So then I'll process in my head "Okay, we're going to the store so I'll be gone about 10 minutes and then I'll come back home to my chats" then we'll leave and then my dad will be like "Ok we gotta go to Target real quick" UM, EXCUSE ME?? LIKE, I HAD A FRICKEN PLAN. So that being thrown into my situation just brings utter chaos and I'll panic. The person is gonna think I'm leaving them! They're gonna hate me and it's gonna be my fault for not knowing! Yeah something like that. The screen mask represents my fear of losing connection to the ones I care about most. I'm only able to talk on my computer and I dont have have a FLIPPIN PHONE. (seriously I need one, I'm tired of having to ask someone. EVEN IF ITS A FLIP PHONE) The bright color scheme represents how unstable I am. Emotionally, mentally, spiritually you name it. and no this isn't vent im literally explaining the reason behind this character although maybe it is vent i don't know i am very confused now help If you read this entire thing comment 'According to youtube statistics only a small percentage of my viewers are actually subscribed.'
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