I need some time to think rn,I'm not leaving but I hear this song and I just miss the old times where everything was how it was, when I didn't have so many things up on me I heard this song and It reminded me of those days when we were getting set at our new home and I miss those times when we were traveling and living in our old house, this has been going on 2-3 days now, I just want everything to be back to normal, I'm growing up now, I'm changing so much and I missed when I didn't have to care I miss those cloudy 2018 days were I would hang out with my bro all day, that time he broke the bathroom sink, remember that @redsledd when we didn't have to care, and then, we had to move, I was destroyed, It hurt, I had to say goodbye to my home, where we got fatcat, and then we have our new home things were cool, times were having this feeling that made me feel happy, we were starting again in a new town and it was amazing, then we got settled and my life had this neutral feeling but now, I hear this and just want the old times back, I want those cloudy days where we had fun and I didn't have to worry about the future, I want my home back, those landlords took what mattered most to me, my home, my happiness, we have had so many moments together at that house, and then my mom sold the car that was one of my last memories of that place and it reopened that wound, now, it's like the place never existed to them, and I never forget it! I want the days were I was younger and I didn't need to care, I was able to talk to my bro, I want those days back, I want my oldlife back, I wanna be happier, yesterday was the best day of my life, I got to remember that, when I was carefree and today thats why it feels worse, I wanna go back home, in 2019 my mom's friend went missing, he went missing in the town we moved from, we were living in another one, we found out he had said he was proud of my mom for finding out what happened, It was cloudy, I had memories of everything we went through and I missed him, we then drove to the doctors office and, Matt really liked bob seger right, and as we are driving, my mom had a seperate playlist from bob seger, no metallica, nothing, but A metallica version of turn the page comes on, and I couldn't control it, I was devastated, the landlord took what made me happy, and those ppl that killed him, took matt, my mom was sad, i was, my bro, I was hurt, and one time, we were driving to arby's it was a long drive, we were new to the town and she had trouble navigatingand we ate and went home, she was sweeping I was watching this sml jeffy thing on my phone (2018) it was amazing cuz It was an original feeling, it was cloudy, but i was happy, and now it hurts so bad to know that i will never feel that again, as we were driving tho, stressed out plays and I just came across this again, Im listening to it over and over and over again, and it helps me remember that i was once very happy,i'm never gonna live that again, i'll never feel that, and im never gonna be a careless child again, my life is changing, im coming up on 6th grade and i'll never be 9 againand i still remember that day when i turned nine, my bike, and I had truble letting go of that bike when I got my new once cuz it never let me down it helped me know what it was like to know that a little bit of the house is still with me, but not anymore, i love to go out in the morning because I think that maybe I will get that feeling that makes me remember old times and be happy, where the air smells fresh, I remember this morning where I was going to the store with my family and it was so nice, early, cloudy, it was a good day, and then there was 2014 I remember my mom telling a neighbor we will be movinf (to the old house) and I remember riding there and sitting in that clean kitchen as the landlord showed my mom the basement it was amazing, and one time we were gonna go up to walmart it was way early in life, i was like 4, me and my bro were playing and my mom said we were going to the store, it was a nice day, i remember the drive home, driving down the slope, idk whats so superior about this moment but I just remember it so much, and I know I can't go back but geez, I wanna, go back, I am constantly drowning it in cringe videos and rap music, but, idk wut to do, I can't deal with it, i've been typing for hours and it's endless what i can type im so hurt and bottled up, I remember the nights when i used to lay by my open window, and watch spongebob on a 19'' tv, one time we were swimming at 7pm as the sun set, it was like that song gotti, the music vid hah, but I miss the old days, I want 2017 back, I want the snowed in days back, were it was insanely bright cuz the snow, i miss when I saw the light from the tire shop billboard at night out my window as I went to sleep I hope you have read this, I have never felt so hurt, comment #2017 if you read this through
