So. Apparently according to a girl at school who used to be a very good friend of mine, wants me to stay away from her and not talk to her or even look at her because I'm "manipulative". We were not talking to each other for a while because she was VERY toxic. She would do rude things and think it was funny. If you were ignoring her or saying things like "i hate her" like i was doing, but i didn't say it around her, just to one friend who was sworn to secrecy. I realize that yes, this is gossip and hateful, but she was doing the same thing. She said it was annoying that i would cry when i didn't understand something, that i try to hard to be an anime girl and that i was weird for liking anime. She called me a b-word behind my back. So when i tried to be nice to her and compliment her, she said (basically) "oh so you think you can be a (b-word) to me and compliment me, not thinking im going to be a (b-word) to you because that's how i roll? i see how it is." later, she told me (basically), "Hey. So you're manipulative, stay away from me, don't talk to me, don't even LOOK at me. Remember when you cried to the teacher when i said something about you?" (for context, some girls i was hanging around and trying to be friends with apparently strongly disliked me and she told me to stay away from them because they didn't like me.) "they told me every day that they didn't like you and didn't want you around at all. You’re pretty manipulative, don't you think? go away." i hate this. i quite literally tell people i'm fine but i'm not really, truly fine. call me dramatic, but thats how i feel. I don't even feel like i should be venting this because i keep thinking its selfish and manipulative, just like how she said. Its annoying. I'm annoying. All my best friends are her best friends. She doesn't want me around her so i can't hang out with them anymore. I want to not be so annoying and rude sometimes. It hurts. song: ghost rule (mafumafu cover) because I feel like screaming
