This isn’t a vent but I hate it when these things happen Sorry XD Was bored *having fun and joking around with fam member and friend* Friend/fam member: “stop doing that your being embarrassing what’s wrong with you shut up stop that ect” *mentaly tired and needs help* “Hey *imput name* can I rant to you?” “Sure!” *Me talking my feeling out* “Just stop worrying! Your fine where ok! Ect” :) wow ok ✨✨✨ *I literally have the nickname smoky the bear bc I would worry over people while camping hgggg* I need support please This again isn’t a vent just tired of old memory’s I just remember one of my cousins crying over dropping a inchworm XDD I’m so paranoid about things I carry a pocket knife on me at all times and have been carrying my backpack *which is pretty small* and super heavy from all the things I have in it in case of emergency like going homeless or getting separated from family it makes my shoulders tense/hurt a lot but it is the only thing that keeps me calm going out I have very sensitive feelings so I get upset easily but it’s ok I’ve dealt with hate before At least my family members don’t tell me things or try not to tell me things that could make me nervous tho sometimes it makes me feel better to know more information Lucky has ADD and I have anxiety/dyslexia that’s fun :) where both not diagnosed but we are pretty sure we have that in common so we keep eachother calm she is my comfort person Drawing/roleplaying etc is a good distraction :) I actually get worried people will yell at me to have a mask one bc in places I don’t need to but at others I still do Did you know a dentist invented cotton candy?/fairy floss Please stay safe = please don’t leave please be careful watch out make sure u look both ways safe travels hope u sleep well and hope u have good health please be careful I care about you I lost one before and I don’t want to lose another again I’m sorry! = I. So sorry did I make u upset? Am I a bad person please tell me what I did wrong I’m scared your mad at me please calm down are you ok? Please be ok I care about you I hope ur ok it’s ok right? Do you need help? To all my recent friends please note I pray for you to have good rest and that God blesses you most nights <3 I wonder what not feeling stressed/having anxiety feels like is it just me who wakes up at night worrying that my family is hurt? No I don’t have meds for this I just have to deal with it/learn how to heal myself and calm down I’m scared of having another panic attack I want to cry every time I talk about it I was so scared the work was shaking I though everyone would laugh at me and judge me if I turned towards them even though it was my moms side of my family they would never it’s hard living in a house where u joke at eachother and it goes to far for me :/ If ur sad that I. Upset it’s fine I’m ok ok? :) I’m always there for people but it hurts me just as much hearing there problems because I want to help but I can’t because I. Just the “therapy friend” or the “mom friend” or the “worrier” I have a brain imbalance what is going on?! I NEED SUPPORT I hope someone who has similar times knows I know how u feel and hope u feel better <3
Hhhh This isn’t suppost to be for views or anything just a heads up I’m stressed :)
