When you see rants, It's normally about something that's bad. Every day, I see rants. Right and left, there's always somebody complaining about the scratch community, or what it is now. This, is not a rant. actually, it is. Hello. This is not going to be some sob story, because what I'm about to tell you now isn't going to be filled with tears and complaining. It's going to be filled with anger. I have let out all my emotions. and yet, people still do not understand. I have let out all I could. and yet, people still do not understand. As a young scratcher, I was stupid, dumb. Only if I knew what will happen in the future. The day I will leave this crappy website. No, I'm not saying that scratch is all bad. I have met some people that I would remember for the rest of my life. I have learned many important things from my friends here on scratch. I'm sure that many rants like mine would say the same thing, but I would want to make one thing clear: who gave you permission to hurt me like that? Whoever you are, I would like to say, that you win. I give up. I have done everything I could. I hope you're happy now. I lost my hope. Scratch has changed me. the real me. Scratch is the reason why I have depression. Scratch is the reason why I cry. Scratch is the reason why I'm loosing myself. Scratch is the reason why I don't feel emotions anymore. Scratch is the reason why I have bags under my eyes. Scratch is the reason why I hate myself. I hate scratch. I'm sorry. oh wait, no, I'm not. I'm not sorry. All those rants, those studios, from the past, all didn't end up with me leaving. When I get mad, I get better. Not this time. I'm leaving for real. I'm not kidding. This isn't a prank. I don't regret it. My dream on scratch, was to inspire other people and teach them things I have learned in my journey. Little did I know, that 'journey' will end short. I'm trying to change scratch. But I'm too weak. I am not your night in shining armor. I'm just a 11 year old girl. If I leave, I want to tell something to my friends. it's selfish of me to leave you like that. I'm sorry. I'm sure that you could find a better person than me. Somebody who is normal :) But, just to say one thing, you guys have always been there for me, in ways others have not. No matter what, you always left a smile on my face. You are the reason why I am here now. I cannot explain how thankful I am to have such good people in my life. Words cannot describe the joy I have with you. You guys are like siblings to me, and I will always be there for you, even outside scratch. nature wants to say to you, you guys are the best friends I've had in my life, and I know that nobody will replace you. When I'm gone, just remember to look up to the sky. and you might see me there, looking after you. Tears come from the heart, and not from the brain.
I don't want my account to be completely dead. When, or If I decide to leave, another person will take my place on this account. They will continue to inspire and teach other people. They will stay on this account, and acomplish what I did not. "Are you leaving?" "I have been through a lot, and by this point, It's more like a yes. If my friends still need me, I'll stay a bit longer." "What about Maps/Payments/Results?" "I will continue my map part that I just got assigned to, and I'll have to cancel my payments, sorry :( "my 800+ dta results will come eventually, I apologize for the wait." My friends will continue Starrii's Night Cafe if I leave, and will help make scratch a better place :) Even if I will leave, I'm not going to leave just yet. I have a lot of things I'll need to say goodbye to before I go. please don't comment on my profile about this. It makes things a lot more worse. I'm really sorry to all my friends.....I'm the worst. probably going to unshare later...
