why don't i just do something? why dont i just help myself? .. i feel stupid. everyday i just feel more and more broken please just give me a break .. i regret so much i wish i could go back i wish i could save myself i wish i could've prevented myself from falling down rabbithole i think im gonna be sick this world is too much everything is too much it feels like everything and everyone just wants to hurt me i know they really dont mean to.. .. how did it even start? how did we get here? i thought i was different and better than this. I have once again lost everything i had why w h y W H Y why dont i learn? When will I learn? everything just hurts :) I just want to forget that i had a life I just want to start over I want to be a different person A better person. I want to know how to be a better person I just feel like im not capable of doing it. I say that i learn but i only end up forgetting No matter the pain I go through I just do it again I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the monster I've become. Why does everything just go wrong? KiII. Me.
